You know those guys who kept beating me and wouldnt stop for simply standing up to them and telling them to back off a couple of kids out of town they tried to attack? Where someone had to start honking at them for them stopping to beat me who later threw rocks at my car and such when i tried to get payback and again tried attacking me in groups? Well I haven't seen a sign of them for months but recently I see one of them a lot on this street walking around mostly with females or with another guy. I keep getting a knife in my pocket or/and some other weapon like a wrench and plan to send him to the hospital for literally trying to kill me but I keep backing out and it never feels right or the right moment. What suggestions do u guys have for me to clear my mind and not have fear? Or meditate someway? I cant go to the cops cause really there is no proof besides me and them plus I already commited enough crimes by attacking them once or twice and trying to run one of them over with my car.

they say you battle fear with thought, so think about it, why are you afraid? why do they want to kick your ass? how can you avoid them?

they also say a wise man retreats to his home.

see what happens when you create problems for yourself? your ego has a great way of getting you into situations like this doesnt it?

Well I am afraid someone else will get involved I will have to hurt or defend myself against as they keep bringing new people into this, or that I will get arrested for alot of diff charges against them or simply I have hesitation and dont know if itll work like i plan. I think even with weapons I am wary of that guy since I hit him with a full on super punch to the chin and he didnt drop. But they are like criminals some of them were caught for some armed robbery, and they attacked me basically for no reason cause I was "talking shet" when in fact I was just laughing at them and not taking them seriously and just happened to park at the wrong spot. I retaliated but real weak cause I was so hesitant, but really I have to do this cause if I dont Ill know if I have a daughter or something in the future who gets raped I wont ever be able to take justice in my hands since I cant even take care of this (and dont say the cops are justice cause rapists and such egt off free all the time).

I just need to face my demons and deal with these guys. Despite already them getting the best of me and scaring the crap out of me by constantly outnumbering and surrounding me or chasing me down and forcing me to hide multiple times, if I dont get some od them theyll eventually get me if they see me again in numbers.

the thing is I retaliated on one of them by stabbing him and he and another dude ran off, than I tried getting another one but ran into the former one in a huge gorup and had to run and hide in dumpsters, schrubs, etc. to escape. Than the black dude I mentioned in this thread I keep seeying whow as part of the original crew who attacked me (they also have their own little disciple crews subsets of the large crew) I hit him and started fighting him but out of the blue that whole crew appeared like form some bruce lee movie and I had to bust out the shank again (I did it when the same one I stabbed mentioned it to them as they were about to storm me and it was my only saving grace), before I drove off I heard one say "Hes got nowhere to go" and they tried surrounding me, but I got in my car and tried to run the black (one I keep seeying lately) over, before they threw some rocks through my windows and I fled. I also saw them at a taco bell where they hang out in front of this taco bell often in a large group and they tried setting up another so called one on one fair fight with me by putting me against some 6"4 nigga. I realized it was a trap and theyll attack me again and got out of there as they followed and went into a bar. SO yea I got some serious history with this crew.

whatever man...

you should seriously think twice before you go around stabbing people, every fight that you win, you create a new enemy for yourself.

like i said, stay home, or leave.

any other route and you're liable to get hurt, maybe even killed.

you sound like someone who doesnt think before he acts and lets his emotions control him.

for every action, there is a reaction, a reward, or a punishment. you should act wisely and avoid actions that will place you in dire situations.

so ur saying there would never be a time where u took justice and revenge into ur own hands? if someone did something to u or ur fmaily and the court didnt punish them u would sit?

not saying i would sit.

my point is, you are creating trouble for yourself.